5 things my baby taught me

1. I am not as patience as i thought 
i always thought i'm a patience people i love teaching sunday school and my web design student, i love playing with babies and kids before i delivered Chloe. So i think i can handle my own kid pretty well but reality is NOT especially when you have face her 24/7 you just can't run anywhere. Its amaze that she is this young but already testing my patience, i got irritated when she couldn't focus on finish her feed, couldn't fall asleep and keep wanting to play when it's nap or bedtime, angry when she wasting her solid eating half way and request to get out of the high chair, waking out numerous time in the middle of the night! i wonder how other mummies make it but i almost went crazy a few times. Then i come to think how my mum go through this for 4 freaking times because she had 4 children and how others went thru it! of course whenever she smile at you ask for hug and make you feel you're her everything all the anger and frustration gone..i guess rising a child Patience is the eye and everything. Be grateful for every little thing, even the tantrums, because everything and every day is a blessing from God.

2. There's no right answer 
Really! no right answer. Everyone will give you their advise according to their own experience or books they read. All i have is my mother instinct and survey thru reading books and article. i don't believe in superstitious thingy like baby shouldn't wear shoe before they learn to walk to me it's nonsense i love buying shoe and baby look very cute in them, or a walker helps baby to learn to walk faster or just feed baby porridge that's what she need yadaa yadaah..

3. Meaning of unconditional love
Motherhood has taught me so much love that I never knew I was capable of. It has taught me how to be selfless and always put her need before me.

4. I married the right guy
He is always there for us, someone i always look out for whenever i'm tired physically and mentally. He never judge me but give me full support and always stand by me, he is my husband. Without such a hand on husband i'm not sure how messy and busy my life as a mother can be, he help to bathe baby, change nappy, volunteer to take care of her alone and book a massage session for to relax, trying his best to give us the best he could! Really what can i ask for rather than Thanking God for such a huge blessing He provide me.

5 Enjoy the moment 
Kids change and will change so don’t worry too much about it what i constantly remind myself, baby is going to outgrowth everything she have it now so ENJOY the moments when she is a baby give her cuddles, hugs as much you can.

Hair Fix @ number76, Bangsar

Finally a proper hair fix after pregnancy and deliver!
the kiasu me went booking for a slot last October then another booking on November for husband!
coz i know Chinese new year is normally the peak period all slot sure fully booked! 
i'm back to my stylist whom i stick with for 2 years plus - Calvin at bangsar branch
he always know what i want for my hair so i got no worries when my precious hair is in his hand..
speaking of my 'precious' hair they are really precious to me now coz i loss bunch of them each day after baby turn 4 months! i remember my brother in law once warn me that after baby start smiling at you that's the time when you start dropping hair..omg so true ok! those smiles make the hair loss all worthy though..just that i'm worry do i even have that much of hair to drop 
okie back to my last visit at number 76 bangsar
i want to cut my hair short other than post-natal hair fall another reason of me losing hair is my baby keep pulling my long hair! it's so painful and heartpain at the same time! already balding this and baby is making the situation worst..
so short hair may solve my problem, and treatment! a lot of treatment! i didn't have any once i got pregnant till almost six month baby i miss ultra sonic treatment so much!
in conclusion i just miss good hair day..
so Calvin suggest their signature ultrasonic treatment to repair my current hair condition together with Shiseido Adenovital Scalp Treatment to solve that works to boost hair generation and combat hair loss
Calvin give me a hair cut as i requested it to be short! also a "air" bang..haha old already must act yige young! 
it was 2 hour long hair pampering session that i really need, Thanks Calvin! he always know how to fix my hair no matter how bad it is! 
 can't wait to be back for a hair color change! 
check out previous experience at number 76 here

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Another 5 days to 6 month

our pride and joy is going to be 6 month in another 5 days! this half a year are amazing! up and downs with so much fun watching her grow and learning things so fast make us worry we might be missing days of her when her baby'ish, she was less mobile and depend on us ..well i guess there's what parents come across
just prayed that you grow well in God's path and words..
stay happy and continue bring joy to people around us

Sleep Training

i dayre about this last week and today marked 12 days of our sleep training another 2 days we will be on our own without the sleep consultant!
actually i was against it when Chloe was 3 months read this i thought we should give whatever the baby wants because she need it 
secure, love, hug
secure as it nurse to sleep, love from co-sleeping, hug from carry her all the time
but when she grow older i realise it might not be the way if we never teach her to be independent she will never learn how to
and the main reason of not training her at that time was laziness..and i dont know how to do it correctly i don't want to put her in any risk 
perhaps we did put her in a risk - SIDS. Because we co-sleep her having her in the middle of our tiny queen size bed with our heavy quilt cover is very dangerous when i think back
all this result her waking up more middle-of-the-night 
at 5 months 2 weeks she show no sign of sleep through the night till and it got worse she woke up every 2 to 3 hourly asking to be nurse..whereas she can drink 4 hourly in daytime, its was all the comfort sucking we are pretty sure about it
so we decide to go on sleep training
many say it's cruel and unnecessary eventually she will wean off why put a tiny baby in a training? Cry!? letting her cry, seriously? you're just a lousy mother that cannot deal with lack of sleep! 
and yes i can't really take it anymore i slowly get really frustrated when i put her to sleep slowly i've develop a pattern okie is nap time let's nurse until she sleep i tell you it can take FOREVER! sometimes she can have only 1 nap! good times she will have 2! but she will wake up God know how many times in one naps because she wake up seeing i'm not there..she can stay awake for 5 hours but really cranky and fussy about everything and wanting to be carry EVERY MINUTES! 
yes is close bonding and she really needs me.. but its not fun when you have no help at all..no helper, no parents no one there to let you have a break or catch a breath! 
even when hubby is back from work he is willing to help me but the problems is evening was her most crankiest timing..(i reckon due to all the lack of nap in the daytime) she just refuse to let hub to carry her or play with her all she want is her milk bottle which is me 
really im exhausted..i'm weak physically too i fall sick every month be it mantis or down with flu..i look pale like zombie, no joke heavy dark eye circle, can't stop losing weight no matter how much i eat, i'm worried for myself..if i fall really sick who is there to take care of her? who to latch her since she don't take bottle?
 i once thought of going back to work may be better for me and her, sending her to infant care may works but i realise its me being irresponsible, i was the one who want to be SAHM so much, i was the one who decide to be with her in her early years but now i want to escape
yes all these are my confession that i never shared with anyone
so i prayed..i didn't pray that much in my life..now you can imagine how tough is motherhood to me haha
and i got an answer all these causes of lack of sleep for me, hubby and of course the poor baby 
and i still love her don't worry
training was another tough one!To execute..it required so much patient and perseverance.. without prayers asking for wisdom and strength from God  we have been give up way at the beginning..
first 2 night we basically didn't sleep at all.. she cry we soothe lay her down cry again soothe again and lay her down again- repeat xN times i tell you my back is gonna broke
second night was better shorter time to soothe her and third night she had her first STTN in her 5 months..although till now it haven't happen again, hubby say that night was God's grace because i was really sick so God let Chloe to sleep through and i got a good rest! Thanks God!
after 12 days of training these are her improvement
1. No more nurse to sleep she doesn't rely on my boobs to fall asleep anymore once I sing her lullaby she will start yawning 
2. Daddy can now put her to sleep! Hopefully soon it will be anyone can do it 
3. Instead of waking up 2 to 3 hourly asking for feed in the night she now can have her milk 7-8 hour from her last feed! big big improvement although no SSTN but this was good enough! 
4. No more co-sleeping! she seems to know the crib is where she suppose to sleep now! 
5. She nap better too! Instead of waking very frequent in her 1-2 hour (wake up 4-5times cry when she realise no one around her) she now only wake up once or none in her 2 hour nap and easily fall back asleep!
6. My house can finally have some noise! My Friend commented "your house become library when baby sleep Hor!" Yes she wake up even a pin drop.. Now we can watch tv, cook and wash dishes without waking her up.. Thanks to white noise!
7. She is less cranky and fussy in her wake time..she play on her own flip non-stop and enjoy her toys! 
8. She's on a better routine..she goes to nap every 1.5 to 2 hour for 1-2 hour nap and wake up cheerful and happy..bedtime she goes to bed at 7 or 8 depend her last nap..

We need to learn how to put her to nap when we're out and thing we regret is
why don't we do this earlier?!! 
although till today i still haven't sleep enough but my longer stretch is now 5 hour not bad! i enjoy Chloe's wake time more now as she doesn't whine so much asking for attention i myself miss carrying her so i would carry her on and off throughout her play time! 
next friday we will be back to KL for chinese new year! another challenge of keeping her schedule with the folks around plus all the visiting..but i'm going to take it easy..*take a breath* let her enjoy her time with grandparents while taking enough rest to keep her cheerful self! wish us luck!
Parenting is indeed challenging, there's a lot of self debate inside us but times will prove it correct or not..all we want is the best for our baby! 

And these words that I command you today shall be on your heart. You shall teach them diligently to your children, and shall talk of them when you sit in your house, and when you walk by the way, and when you lie down, and when you rise. You shall bind them as a sign on your hand, and they shall be as frontlets between your eyes. You shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates. Deuteronomy 6:6-9

Chloe's first solid

seriously where does the times goes? is it just me feeling that time pass extra extra fast when one become a parent? on her 5 month old i started to introduce cereal to yeah her first solid!
my friend notice she is all ready for solid, she asked me to start to introduce bit by bit
• Head control *check* always very strong 
• Sitting well when supported. *check* she always love to be seated but she still hate her high chair though
• Chewing motions *check* sometimes i'm so envious what is her actually chewing
• Significant weight gain *check* way double than her birth weight
so we let her lick a little pear that we having after dinner she was so eager to try and lick a few times, tasting it carefully then give us a wide smile! yes baby food for you!
so i get geared up all the tools that need for solid 
Healthy Time Brown Rice Cereal, OXO Tot On-the-Go Feeding Spoon, OXO Tot Divided Feeding Dish, and Munchkin Hot Safety Spoons
finally our sukusuku EN high chair are put into good use! 
 Chloe: What!mummy you're finally giving me other food than breastmilk!!
let's begin chloe solid journey!!!